Ancient crumbling city of narrow, winding streets, covered with strata of cow dung, older dung dried out and squashed flat by passing traffic, fresh cow pats lying wetly, waiting for you to put your foot in them. Piles of rubbish line the streets, piled into corners, sometimes heaped up in the middle of the street. Trees grow out of some of the old, abandoned houses, roots dangling down to the street.
There are two burning ghats by the river, one strictly for Hindus and one for anyone who can pay. A man standing near the burning ghat-for-anyone-who-can-pay tells me that I must move away because only men can attend the burning ceremony. This, he tells me is because women are emotionally weak and they cry, and it is important that the dead person should not be disturbed by crying, because this might interfere with their journey to Nirvana. The second reason why women are not allowed to attend the cremations is because if they did they might throw themselves on their husband’s burning pyre. The burning pyres didn’t look big enough to me for anyone to throw themselves onto and in any case the wood was carefully stacked in a neat pile and it would collapse if a woman threw herself on top of it. I asked how old the man was who died. “Old” he said “very old. About 60 or 70.”
Boats loaded with pilgrims, the women dressed in brightly coloured saris, pass by on their way up and down the river, some stopping opposite the burning ghat. The man talking to me told me that this was his family’s burning ghat and that when the burning was finished if any parts of the body had not been consumed by the fire they were thrown in the river for the fishes to eat, thus keeping the circle of reincarnation intact. The ashes from each cremation were piled in a huge heap and early each morning he and his father sifted them to look for gold jewellery, which they sold. He said that they used this money to pay for the wood needed to cremate people who were too poor to pay for the wood themselves. He also pointed out the electric crematorium, where poor people could be cremated for a fraction of the cost of a proper cremation in the burning ghat. (so why would he need to finance a burning ghat cremation for poor people if he could just pay for them to go to the crematorium?) Anyway the crematorium had broken down. Sadhus, lepers and children are not cremated because they do not need to be purified by fire. They are pure enough already. So they are lashed to a large stone and dropped into the deepest part of the river.
After this introduction to how he was gaining good karma by helping the poor (sounded to me as if his family were onto a winner owning a burning ghat) he told me that there was a silk factory near by, the profits of which went to help the poor pay (yes you've guessed it) for wood f or the poor to cremate their dead. He took me there and told me that I must buy presents for my daughter. I did buy some shawls, but only because they were made from banana tree fibre and I have never seen this before.
That was the first scam. Many more were to follow. Some people have a carefully prepared story, like this, others just poke you in the ribs and say 'give me money grandmother.' The most unnexpected was a boat trip, together with an Indian pilgrim and his daughter. I thought the boat was going along the river and agreed to pay 50 rupees. But the boat just went to the other side of the river, where my fellow passengers climbed onto the backs of horses, took photos of each other, walked a little way, then caught the boat back to the other side of the river. The boat man took 50 rupees off me, but let the Indian pilgrims go scott free. I discovered that the fare was 20 rupees and I had paid for all three of us!
In the evening people gather at the biggest ghat, sitting in rows on the ground in front of a series of altars decked with flowers. Musicians sing and play a hypnotic chant. Boatloads of pilgrims glide back and forth along the black velvet river. Lit candles float on the water like glow worms. A constant procession of pilgrims, post card sellers, sadhus, beggars, candle and flower sellers stream past, while a skinny man preaches in English, although no one is listening to him. People begin to clap in time to the music. Slim young men dressed in white satin tunics and white satin trousers step out in front of the altars, facing the Ganges and blow a long note on conch shells. They ring bells and wave incense with synchronised movements. A man walks by with whitened face and garlands of marigolds round his neck. Smoke from the incense billows out in clouds, blowing downstream, following the flowing river. The young men now take flaming candelabra, lit like Christmas trees and raising them begin to swngi them round their heads in a circular motion. The bells continue to clang, the musicians to play, the incense to blow and the boats to glide up and down the river.
I am sitting next to a Danish photographer who has been commissioned to photograph beggars. We decide to take a rikshaw back to our hotels together, but the rikshaw drivers start to ask us for ridiculous amounts of money. He bargains with them. I pust decide to walk back and so I set off, along the ghats, which are well lit, past Western hippies playing music to a curious crowd of Indians, past a fat Hindu priest, naked from the waist up, performing a ceremony to a crackly sound track, turned up so loud that it is distorted, past the burning ghat, where five fires now glow red in the night and the pile of ash if a huge pyramid. I climb up the steep steps from the ghat to the narrow streets that should lead to my guest house, but it's dark and I don't recognise anything. I ask the way and people point. I arrive at a guest house which is not my guest house but has the same name. The doorman wants money from me to phone the other guest house. I persuade him to just tell me where it is and set off. I am mobbed by a gang of children, who all put their dirty hands on me, touching, poking, shrieking with laughter. I'm starting to get hysterical. Eventually some men chase the children away and I find my guest house.
Just as I am getting out of the shower, the Japanese man who travelled with me on the train knocks on my door. He tells me that he has had diahroea all night and all day and got lost and hasn't eaten anything since yesterday. I realise that he wants me to go out with him to get something to eat. He is 20 years old, travelling alone for the first time, in India and sick. He has been to the chemist and bought medicine. We go out to eat.
Next day I knock on his door. He doesn't answer. I am concerned. I tell the hotel receptionist that he is sick and I think he should go to hospital. The receptionist assures me that he will look after him. I leave.